So.. to start off this weekend.. I went to my choir concert.... And.. It was a BLAST! :) haha! I am pretty sure I hardly remember talking when I went up to the microphone but I tried to speak slow and exciting like... I hope it worked :P Haha! Everyone in my class thinks I am so funny! Haha! I think I have become funnier in the last week cause making jokes makes me feel better, even when no one laughs..(But not gonna lie, they usually do, even out of pity ;) pity laugh!) Haha! But yeah, was really great especially at the rehearsal the night before, I was in a SUPER crazy mood! :P So, I decided that I would just keep these jokes rollin', and what did it get me?? A speaking part! Never be funny! BEAT THE TEMPTATION! REEESSSIIISSSTTTT!!! :P Hahahaha! :) It was pretty great! I was saying little comments to my neighbors when the teacher said, "Tauni! Can you read the next one? You are just so funny and you would be perfect!" I didn't even volunteer! :P Haha! So, I went up there and the Mic wasn't on, so I just started saying it and, BAMB! <--- that looks like Bambi on Steroids :P Haha! but yeah then the mic came on, and DANG! It threw me for a loop! Haha! I started yelling out profanity, ya know me, just a potty mouth ;) HA! Gotcha! :P REally?! You believed me... >:/ :) Jk! Not really! I actually just jumped a lot a bit and put some ad lip and told a joke and I'm pretty sure I am still the choir class clown.. I just can't grow out of it :P Haha! :) but yeah then, after we sang our insane Gospel-like musica I decided that I was super tired... which makes these joking manners worse... oh dear... So you will never guess what happened next?! My teacher starts saying that everyone needs more energy, I swear Tauni is the only one having any fun up there. Then I raise my hand and I say, well if you all need more energy, I have a secret.. I should have stopped while I was ahead.... As everyone goes quiet, as if they know this ought to be good, I say, I just pretend to flirt with the conductor and it makes things TONS more fun! As the conductor blushes and everyone starts laughing, the piano player says, you can flirt with me, I'm single! Hahaha! Man, it was hilarious, and did I play around with that comment make by that dear piano player, I just said, if we just turned the piano a bit, it would be perfect! Hehe! Made him blush too! SCORE! :P Haha! :) I even told him afterwards I loved his wicked piano playing skills! Hahaha! Then I went home and just, simmered down! I was soooo hyper! It wasn't even like normal hyper, I just wanted to go talk to people and make jokes! :P Ya know, when you're on a roll, you just don't wanna stop... well, technically you can't cuz you're rollin but hey, you haffta hit the end of the hill eventually right?! Haha! :) Well, I went to my concert Friday after a FREAKING SPECTACULAR day! And, I went to the concert super excited, nervous, crazy tired, and looking forward for a weekend of AWESOMENESS!! Well, I went to the concert and I felt pretty great, but then this kinda sadness sank in for some reason. I felt like, wow, I have no body to go talk to about these concerts and have them laugh at the funnies I thought about, the amazing things I felt during certain songs, then it started make me really miss my missionary boys, and then just to make it better, I saw a couple in front of me talking about the concert and just sitting there just laughing, holding hands, giggling, and it made my heart kind of sink a little bit, then I just heard as I was passing, you are my bestest friend, you know that? Oh man! I lost it! I just miss having a best friend that I can hug and laugh with! I mean, I have plenty of girl friends, but, guy friends, they are just so much better. I just don't know how to explain it. How can I express that with most boys I come in contact with, I am merely playing with the flirting because its fun, but in reality, I just enjoy the company and the friendship? I have never been able to do that! Hurrummmphh!! Haha! Whatevs, you live, you learn. :) But then, I came home, bought some pizza with only quarters, and got on the road to a camping trip! :) WOOT! :) I went with Kate, Jared, and some of their couplily peeps. Oh yeah, if you could imagine how I would just (WARNING: about to be sarcastic :P) LOVE that weekend of cuddling, kissing, sappy cuteness. (okay, sarcasm rant over.) But, in reality. I really enjoyed it and I made some really great friends! :) They were all so great and gave me plenty of advice on relationships. I think I needed that weekend, to just see the success of relationships, and they are not all set up for failure! :) I was soooo happy! :) Like, I did wish I had someone there to hold my hand, to tell secrets to, to laugh with and hug! But, you know, it didn't even phase me until I got back that, really, my time, my guy, my happiness that comes with it all, WILL COME! :) I am promised! :) Man, I can't wait for that day.............. :D Sorry, I had a bit of a grin attack! :) Well, this weekend I also enjoyed FOUR-WHEELING! :) Oh man! I freaking love outdoorsy stuff! OH MY WORD! And funny that happened! I told Kate and Jared about my funny I pulled in choir and... they said wait, what's the piano players name? I said, Tyler, I think. WHAT!? They totally know him and are setting me up on a blind date! :) EEEKKKKKK GAADDDSSS!!! :) But, he isn't actually blind. So no worries ;) Hahaha! I just figured I need to stay busy to really just deal with everything right now and just keep the jokes coming and save the emotions for the pillow! :) So far, it has been great! :) I got home at 11:30 this morning, almost afternoon, and I made it to 1 o'clock church and man. This church is so great! I walked into my Relief Society Lesson a little late after I took the sacrament and they were walking about the Love of the Savior through all things. It tends to happen after hard things happen, and when I go into nature, I seem to have a better appreciation for all the things, people, and love around me. I started to cry, at first I thought it was because I really was sad and wanted to hear that someone out there loves me, but then I felt this burning inside my entire being that everything is going to be alright. God has sooooo much in mind and in store for me! I don't know what, but if I am doing what I can, he will help me restore my happiness to the fullest and will guide me in the direction I need to go! :) Without this Gospel, I would be SCREWED! Is that allowed to be said? All well. Haha! :) But, I love it so much you guys! I wish I could even express the gratitude in my heart, in my mind! I wish I could express how much God loves EVERY SINGLE person! No matter their faults, no matter their sins, no matter their actions. I surely know I don't deserve such love from a Father so perfect and glorious, but that is what I need to do. Is show everyone that they are worth sooooo much and they deserve the best! I know God loves me! I am a daughter of God and I am soooooooooo excited to start my new mission of making EVERYONE I meet happy and feel loved as they walk away from me! :) I can't say I am the happiest girl alive quite yet..... but I am getting there! :) I ended today by reading my scriptures and listening to my feel better Pandora station "Michael Buble" with a variety of Gene Kelly, Frank Sanatra, Nat King Cole, and Ella Fitzgerald :) Keep your chins up my friends! Keep smiling and doing what is right! <3 Love Love you all! :) I also found my newest favoritest song called "Closer" by Shawn McDonald! :) SOOOOOOOO GREAT! :) Check it out! :) Peace out Brothas and Sistas :D
Tauni Ackerman
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