Oh my word!! :) I don't think I have ever, EVER had so many crazy things happen in just one week! :P I am in SUCH a great mood and I can't even fathom how happy I am right now! :) I started off the week with being pretty sick on Tuesday. But on Wednesday, I fasted, and went to the temple and all that... WOW! Did it change my life!? I have SUCH a huge testimony of the power of prayer, fasting, and temple work! It literally made my whole week right side up! :) I have not been able to wipe this smile off my face! :) :D I think it just got bigger ;) hahaha! :) Well, on Tuesday, as I was bed-riden, I wrote Elder Brooks Browning and Elder White (His companion) :P They are sooooo hilarious! They wrote me on a Green Eggs and Ham card which made me just die! :P Hahaha! :) They won our card battle, first with the dog card, then the cat card, then that.. Man! I could have kept it going.. But haha! Whatevs. I am Broke!!! :P I just paid off my rent today! And it was insane that I had all I needed! :) I have been doing so well in my classes. Like since the beginning of this week, I think I have been happier then I have ever been. I think it is probably just knowing how much people care for me, and also, how much the Lord really is looking out for me! :) Man! I am sooooo blessed! Just walking around campus, I couldn't help but smile at the beauty around me! :) It smelt so nice tooo! :) Haha! I love the smell of the grass, the flowers, the trees, even the water, and the smell of just nature! It is my favoritest smell in the world! :) Without all these mountains, gorgeous trees, glorious sunshine, even when it rains or snows, or is just blasted windy... I just smile and know how blessed I am to be were I am, to be surrounded by such beauty of the Gospel, of people, of the school, of the temple and just amazing things happen every single day and ... man, Life would SERIOUSLY suck if I didn't seek one out every day! I love my friends! They are all so amazing and supportive and loving! It kills me! :) I just am soooo blessed in soooo many aspects of my life! :) I have decided to go with a Music Major! I know, I know! Don't keel over with excitement! :P I know I am! AWWWW!!! :) I just am so excited to dive into the work! :P Did that just sound mission related>?! Say whaaaa!??? Right now, I am really amazed by the people that just enjoy my company. It really boosts my self esteem! :) I have never really felt the spirit of just soooo much goodness around me in my life! I think God sent me eyes this semester! Seriously! I have been able to understand and realize soooo many things! I have gotten the answers to prayers almost daily and I have NEVER even realized how great this Gospel is! I guess when he says I am blessed with discernment and the knowledge of things in the future... This is how it feels! Seriously, last semester I would have died with the things that I have gone through this semester! I was just so ready for the things, and I didn't even realize it until my fast on Wednesday! When I fasted and did temple work.... I felt the spirit soooo strong! More than I ever have in my entire life! I knew that things happen for a reason. I finally understood why I have just had to deal with certain types of people in my life, I realized why I waited soooo long to get into a relationship, I realized why I am here at BYU-Idaho, at least for now! I realized, I love my family and my friends... and honestly everyone I come in contact with because... They deserved to be loved as much as I deserve to be loved. When you think about it.... How inadequate are we to our Heavenly Fathers and Saviors love? I realized that I have been taken sooo many things, so many people, so many opportunities for less than what they are truly worth. Our Savior, Jesus Christ, died on the cross, suffered for my sins.... just as much for me as anyone else. Who am I to judge, to hate, to criticize? I feel so insignificant and small when I think about it. But in the eyes of our Savior.. Our Father in Heaven, we are huge! We are significant! We are chosen! We are Larger than Life :P (Backstreet Boys! Holla!) :) I mean, we have soooo much potential, so much to live for. We are just throwing it away by gossiping, snickering, back-biting, hating, judging, even to the point that we don't read our scriptures, we don't pray, we don't fulfill our callings, we don't reach out to others and show our Saviors love to them! Who am I to do such things? If our Master, Redeemer, Lord, Savior, Christ, Brother gave all these things to me, Scriptures, music, beauty, friends, family, an education, a home, food, hope, a prophet, a testimony, a smile, a light, a voice, talents..... Why not share and enjoy them? I love my life! I love my Savior! I love my Family and I love this Gospel! :) Life doesn't get much better if you are looking and always striving for the best! :) I vow, right now (haha that rhymed :P) that I am going to smile! I am going to meet new friends! I am going to read my scriptures and prepare for whatever lies ahead! I am going to be nice and loving to EVERY person! No matter how they did me wrong. I need to work on being more Christ-Like and loving! I really have been trying so hard this week and it has made the world of difference in how I feel and how I treat and think of myself. It might sound silly, but... there is a whole lot in truth in how you treat others how you want to be treated! It helps so much! And the cool thing about it is, it wasn't too hard to fall into a routine and to really just be myself and love what I have been given! Sometimes its hard to remember what I used to be... How I used to be! and sometimes I feel like I am almost that person again when I hit my low points.... but Heavenly Father and the Savior have always been by my side and its not until now that I have let them take on some of my load and just feel weightless in my doings and feeling just so amazed and loved by every single person I meet! :) Life is great! I hope you all can come to terms with whatever you are going through and feel the joy and happiness to the FULLEST EXTENT! :) It's phenomenal! :) Come join the party! Let's all be friends and love one another.... and.. lastly, World Peace!............ HAHAHA! Jk! but seriously..... :) Haha! :) Love you all! And I hope that by reading this you might be inspired and feel your Saviors love! :) Keep your heads up, don't forget who you are! And DON'T FORGET TO SMILE :D Nice and big just so even people in China can see! :) Yeah! Latter-Day Saint Pride! Fist Pump in the Air! :) Yeeeeeahhhh Buddy! :) <3
Tauni Ackerman~
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