All Good Things Must Come to an End

Well... When I hear that phrase, I believe it full heartedly and I am not gonna lie, it kinda sucks a little bit. But hey!  It's okay!  You live, you learn!  I am just soooooo very grateful for this gospel and for my amazing family! :)  Yesterday, I went on a date with Lane.  We had a blast and I just can't get over how great he is!  I wish he could see it!  :)  But yeah, we talked a lot about lots.  We almost kissed yesterday...  I felt like I wasn't ready for him to kiss me.  Can I just say, it amazing how true it is that I can see things in the beginning how they will affect me and how things will turn out.  I saw this from the beginning.  I talked to my mom the day before me and Lane got together, I told her that I just felt kind of confused of how in two weeks we could just change statuses like that.  I talked to her about how I didn't see it really going all the way or anything but that I felt that I could learn something from the relationship.  I guess it was a mutual feeling.  Man, I just felt like I just needed to throw myself into the relationship and just be his friend.  I am so glad I met him this semester!  I can see him being a HUGE impact on my life!  We talked yesterday and decided we are just going to be friends.  Which, I honestly could say, through me off guard for about a second but after I prayed for peace and comfort... It felt right!  We talked and I just asked him to tell me what happened.  He said when we were in the Gardens for our date, he felt like he wasn't being fair to me.  He had felt like he went into this to show me that people can really care for me more than friends and to keep my chin up! :)  I really.... Wow!  Okay, well when I asked God to help me know that I could feel loved and have someone, even a friend, just let me know that I am loved at the end of last semester.... Wow!  I can just say, even in a breakup, my prayers were being answered!  How can I not believe this gospel with EVERY FIBER OF MY BEInG?!?  Man.  How many times can one person be the answer to my prayers?  Like seriously!?  God knows me all too well :)  I feel at peace.  I feel happy.  I feel loved.  I feel... amazed.  I still love Lane every little bit.  But its not the love that I can say is romantic.  I can say that I love him as a Best Friend, as an Older Brother. :)  I can always turn to him.  He is still my best friend.  I have no idea how I can express to him there are NO HARD FEELINGS!  :)  If anything I respect him and care for him more to show me that people can care and that he can be my friend no matter what!  I want to be there for him and him there for me!  :)  Lane Allen Deines, you are one of the most amazing people I know.  No one has ever been so courageous in my eyes to even try to show that they care like you did, and do.  I hope we can always be friends, best and eternal friends.  I know I was supposed to meet you, you need a friend, you need to be reminded daily of your worth and that Christ and Heavenly Father loves you! :)  I am always here for you!  I know that we aren't together anymore, but I can "be that friend that holds your hand and starts to walk". :)  I am always there for you and I will always despite of your feelings, hold you close in my heart as a friend and a GREAT impact on my life!  :)  You have been such a great influence and friend.  And you have proved to me that I can trust you and talk to you about anything! :)  Thank you! :)  When you are ready to be Best Friends again... Let me know and I will welcome you with open arms! :)  I feel like our relationship is worth fighting for! :)
I always felt as I broke up with my first boyfriend, I would feel different.  The heart break lasted for about an hour.  But, when I took the Lord and his tools and put them into play, all I could feel was peace and I know God has great things planned for me!  :)  I can't wait to know exactly what could possibly be better, what could be what I need, but when that day comes.... I JUST CAN'T WAIT! :)  My life has never been perfect but it has always been a blessing through good or bad.  :)  I am SOOOO grateful to have the opportunity to be at this beautiful school and to be playing the game of life!  It definitely is not what we expect most times, but if we stay close to the spirit... We can do ANYTHING!  :)  I am grateful for the people in my life and I am so happy to be me and know what I know.  :)  The Lord wants us to win this battle.  You need friends, family, leaders, apostles, prophets, the Lord, and a testimony... You will make it! :)  I love my life and I love my friends, I love my family, I love this gospel, it is SOOO true! :) And don't you forget it! :)
Love,
A Grateful Happy Girl :D Tauni Ackerman

Oh Man! I have THEE besstest people around me!

So, I am pretty sure that I am the most blessed person in my eyes right now!   The Lord has blessed me sooooo much with such wonderful friends, with a family that loves and supports me, and a boyfriend that I am absolutely crazy about.  :)  How in the world can I be so blessed?!  This past week was really great! Just to start off the week, Monday was pretty insane!  I mean, I went on a walk with Lane and we talked a lot.  I felt kind of confused and I didn't really know what to do and I didn't really know what to think really.  I prayed so much for the next few days to know if, maybe, I am supposed to stay with Lane and if I am supposed to be supporting him.  Ever since he came over to my house and gave me a blessing, I could feel myself falling in love with him.  My first thought was, "No way are you falling in love with him.  You have only been together for almost 2 weeks."  But then I thought something else. I have known Lane since the 19th of April and I am pretty sure I felt a connection the first time we really encountered with one another.  It was like we talked and talked and I felt like I had literally known him forever!  After thinking about all this, my heart felt at peace!  Then on Monday, I had him come over to my house and had him read about this dream I had about him.  It was, in a nutshell, a dream that made me feel sad and discouraged.  In the dream, he told me he couldn't be with me because I deserve better.  Man, it killed me inside! But, after talking to him about it.... WOWWZZAA!!  I felt a ton better and I loved him even more!  He just read my journal entry about it and made me feel better and we just hugged and I felt such relief and peace!  So, then Tuesday... MAN!  It was such a crazy, and busy day!  I had woken up and was getting ready for class and then after class, I came and got ready because I had to sing in Women's Glee for Devotional!  OH MY GOSH!  I was so nervous, I nearly wet myself I am pretty sure! ;P  But yeah!  I also made my man a sandwich. ( Clique I know ;))  Haha!  :)  I just love making him happy and feel loved and important!  I hear people complain all the time about needy companions or boyfriends or girlfriends and wow!  I can't think of anything better than making someone else happy!  It is honestly a challenge but it is kinda like a fun game and blessing to be able to have the opportunity to help someone see themselves the way God sees them!  I just LOVE it! So, after devotional on Tuesday, me and Lane prepared ourselves to meet the FAM!  Whoa!  I can't decide which of us was more nervous!  I wished he would hold my hand on the way down, but the wind disagreed!  The wind was blowing all over the place and he needed to keep both hands on the wheel!  The thing that I love is that when I think something he says something about it that makes me feel better! Like he turned to me and said, "I would hold your hand but I don't want to kill us both."  WHOA!  What the heck?!  Can I say nicely said, brother?  Man.  There are moments we have like that ALL the time!  I love it!  So, we finally got down to Idaho Falls, at Texas Roadhouse to meet, Mom, Dad, NaNa, PaPa, Grandma Ackerman, Kia, Chantelle, Justin, and Alicent.  Dang, I thought I was going to pass out!  Of course, the first thing NaNa asks is, "where did you serve your mission."  Haha!  "Seattle."  He proudly chimed! :)  He met everyone and I could tell he was just as nervous as heck!  But, no worries because by this point we were holding hands and it made me feel so much better!  As I sat there with my family, I just kind of sat there and watched him interact with my siblings answer to the teasing comments from my PaPa and Mom.  I was amazed!  He did soooo well!  As I took him to graduation, I was not as nervous and I was honestly excited to show off my boy and just show people this great man that I have been falling in love with!  It was so great!  I felt like I left him in the dust a little bit but just watching him and having him close by my side....  It was like I know God has my happiness in mind! :) After the night was done, we traveled back to Rexburg!  I felt this new connection with Lane.  I told him some things from my childhood up to a few years ago and I was just amazed at how well I trusted him! But after a while, I found I was so tired, so on the way home, I fell asleep.  After we got back home, I came back to my apartment and cried.  Why you ask?  Because, Lane is just absolutely fabulous and I just didn't know how to show him, and I just was having feelings I didn't think would come so fast.  I was honestly just so scared! I didn't talk to Lane for a few hours.  After a while, Emily came in and helped me by just sending Lane a message.  Lane asked me if I wanted we could take a break so we weren't going so fast.  I wanted to just say, "No!  I just want to be with you more and more, it just scares me."  But I just asked him if he wanted to take a break.  And you know what he said, "No, not at all.  After the car ride home, I want to be with you more." :)  Like I said, he just knows what to say to make me feel loved and just knows me so well.  He then told me about a really cool experience he had in the car. :)  While I was sleeping, having me close, he felt a connection that gave him peace and he said he saw me as God sees me.  Man, I was blown away.  Did I cry again?  Yes.  Something I failed to tell him, or anyone for the fact, is the experience I had while I was sleeping.  I had felt that feeling of peace but as well as acceptance.  As I slept, I had a very special dream that I hold close to my heart!  That dream was so extremely life changing and I never asked Lane, but at a point in my dream, I felt completely aware of my surroundings and I tightened my grip on his hand, never wanting this feeling to go away!  I am glad we both had such an experience! On Thursday, I just felt so on top of the world!  My mom called me and asked me if I was going to go to my cousins graduation on campus.  I went and I was so scared that I was going to come back moody and stuff.  But no. I was fine and I loved it.  It might have had something to do that right beforeI left I ran into Lane and I was SOOO happy to see him!  I think I can't even remember how I lived without him before!  He makes me so happy and just...complete!  Then on that Friday, I felt so great, yet again, and I was thinking I wouldn't be able to see Lane before he left for Utah.  But... After he got done at the temple he called me and asked if I wanted to come over and we could watch the Lion King and hang out!  AWWWWWWEEEESOMEEE! :)  So, of course I did! :)  I went over and we cuddled and after his roommates left, I found we both sat up and just held hands.  I don't know how it is possible to love someone more when you stop cuddling and just hold hands.  I just saw a light and felt this sense of respect and I just continued to gain respect and love for him, as we had decided that we can't cuddle unless other people are around! :)  Pretty close to the end of the movie, his roommates and Rachael Versey and Marlowe came over and they all squished on a couch with me and Lane on the little couch.  So, I moved over onto his lap to make room for others to sit down!  And as we sat there, he was playing with my hair and haha, he found my ticklish spot on the back of my neck.  haha! :)  It was great! I just love it when we are close and just, he knows how to make me feel amazing and loved.  So, we decided to go to Jamba Juice.  After we got our Jambas, we came home and me and him just sat in the back of Rachael's car.  Man, I turned to look at him and his face was so close to mine and I panicked.  I was pretty sure he wanted to kiss me!  So, as we sat there, I almost just snagged a kiss but instead I just rubbed my nose with his and then we went inside!  He told me on the way in, not to think he was a bad boyfriend, he was planning on kissing me but he just didn't want to get me sick. :)  AWWW! :) I am soooo excited but sooooo nervous! I think he is planning something for tomorrow! I don't know what but... I have a feeling I am going to like it! Yesterday, he was down in Utah and I missed him like crazy!  How in the world can I be so deprived of one person for only a day?  Man though, while he was down there, he texted me and asked me questions about where I want to live, and what temple I want to get married in.  I just love this boy!  He just is so perfect for me!  I can say something completely awkward and he would laugh and love me anyways. I wrote him a letter during church and gave it to him after church!  :)  I can't wait when I get to hang out with him again, and hold his hand, make jokes with him.  He is just so great and understands me like no one else! (except Jesus and HF of course.) :D  I love my life and it just keeps getting better! :)
Love you all, and I will keep everyone updated! :)
Tauni Ackerman :)  Lovesick College Girl! <3

Imma Be a Girlyfriend :)

:)  Well.... Let me just let you all know, I am almost at a week of my first relationship and it is absolutely fantastic! :)  My boyfriend... Lane Deines... is ABSOLUTELY adorable! :)  He makes me smile so much!   He is the boyfriend every single girl deserves... still wondering why me, but I am not about to complain! :)    On May 15th, he asked me to be his girlfriend.  Hehehe!  He even was super cute about asking me to hold his hand.  He was kind of scared at first and just said never mind... then a few minutes later he says, Would you be opposed to me holding your hand? :)  I said nope and slapped my hand open on my leg!  Hahaha!  :) I am so freaking awkward! I love it!  but we are just so cute, in my opinion.  Haha! Well, we have been hanging out every single day!  And we also have just been doing all odds and ends together and it just makes me so happy!  I even skyped with his Grandma the other day! :)  She is such a funny lady!  She seems SOOO great! :)  Which doesn't surprise me at all!  :)  I honestly can't fathom how great he is and he is just so strong and amazing!  He constantly is complimenting me and telling me I am amazing!  I was kind of disappointed after we became boyfriend and girlfriend because when we would cuddle or hold hands, I wouldn't feel that... spark, that.... amazing feeling when you like somebody a lot!  I just didn't know really what to think about it!  As I was reading this book called, "How to Avoid Falling in Love with a Jerk" I read that some relationships, you just need to give it time and get to know each other.  Some of the STRONGEST relationships start out as great friendships first! :)  Which I am TOTALLY okay with!  On my list for qualities in my future husband, #1 priority is I want him to be my Best friend before much else!  Which I really like that we didn't jump into a relationship at first and we got to know each other a little bit more! :)  These last few days have been absolutely amazing!  :)  I really like him.  I still don't feel like I have completely fell for him quite yet, but only time can tell!  He is so funny and he loves my jokes and makes me feel so great! such a cutie pie! :)  On Friday, we didn't get to see each other at all!  I had to go to my sisters 'Peter Pan' performance down in Idaho Falls.  Lane let me use his car, which is such fantastically awesome of him!  And I decided to take Kayla along with me! So we went down there and I texted Lane and man, that poor boy!  He said he was so bored and couldn't figure out what he did before we started hanging out! :)  Hehe!  Man, but it was crazy not having him with me!  But, I was SOOO grateful for him letting me use his car, so I washed it for him and made him a little coupon book!  :)  He LOVED it! :)  These are his words, "I have the best girlfriend ever!" :)  Yaya! :)  but yeah so, as you could imagine, we were SOOO excited to hang out on Saturday!  Sadly, I started ;) Wink, wink, nudge, nudge, and my body HATED me!  I had cramps to die for! So what happened was I fell asleep at like 10:30 pm 'til like 1 in the morning!  OH MY GOSH!  I woke up and had thee worst pain of my life! I took tons of medicine and kept heating up the heating pad and tried going back to sleep!  By the time 6 am rolled around, I couldn't take it anymore and I texted Lane and Grant to come and give me a blessing!  Then I thought, what in the world am I going to tell them is wrong?!  Hahaha!  They weren't awake!  So, by 7, I had Kayla run over there and give them a holler to come over!  I was in soooo much pain!  They got over in about 20 minutes.  They looked so concerned.. Especially Lane.  and I was just laying on the couch!  Grant said, "so girly whats up?!"  I said, "well, you know that one thing girls have once a month??  YEAH!  It's kickin' my butt and I have NEVER had this much pain!" haha awkward?  Yes! :) haha!  But they gave me a blessing and I felt soooo much better!  Man, Lane is such a great boyfriend! :)  Well, then he came over and we watched "She's the Man."  Hehe!  :)  It was great!  Then we went to Pizza Pie Cafe and he paid for me!  :)  We held hands and just had a great time together with also, Kayla, Rachael (1 and 2), Megan (1 and 2), and Grant!  Hhahaha! It was so much fun!  Then, he had to go get ready for his concert, since he plays trombone for the schools symphony band!  WHAT A STUD!! :)  He looked so super attractive in his suit and bow tie! :)  I went to the concert and he shot me the biggest grin when I got there! :)  WOOWWWZZAAA!! :)  The concert was SUPER AMAZING! :)  I got to watch my boyfriend play straight on and the music gave me chills! :)  I just love music SOOO much and it was amazing that we can share that love for music together! :)  After the concert was over, I waited for him and we walked home together!  :)  Haha!  He was in SUCH a crazy mood!  :)  He said, this is why I am a music major!  :)  I just loved watching him and how happy it made him and just that light of Christ and absolute love for what he does shine through those beautiful blue eyes of his!  :) he is just so adorable! :)  When we got back to his apartment, I sat there and we were both in pretty great moods and we just sat there holding hands and stuff and it was just so great!  :)  he showed off my coupon book I gave him and he just kept saying things about me being the greatest girlfriend!  GAH!  I am still getting used to it!  It is soooo crazy weird!  :)  But I still like him anyhow and starting yesterday, I actually felt a spark when we held hands... Like the little butterflies... It's coming slowly, but its coming :D :D BIG GRIN! :)  Haha! :)  Then we went to a bonfire! :)  Oh man, it was a blast! :)  I borrowed one of his sweatshirts and it made me feel like those girls in high school that wear their boyfriends letterman jacket! :)  Hehehe! :)  Yeah, we went and held hands on the way !  I have never held hands while driving before ;)  Hahaha! :)  He is so stinkin' cute and we can talk so easily :)  When we got there we put our arms around each other and just cuddled bunches!  :)  It was so much fun! My favorite is when we whispers things to me so no one else can hear!  They are usually hilarious or stuff just about us!  I am kinda worried just because we are both so touchy... But I think we are both cautious enough that we will be okay! :)  We looked at the stars and ate starbursts and cookies!  :)  There was even a cop that came over and we got fined!  DANG IT! :P Haha!  I was full of just sarcastic and snide comments the ENTIRE night!  I felt bad!  Lane was the only one that could hear them and he was just laughing and telling me I was terrible! :)  Haha! :)  It was just so great! He told me that when I came to his concert that his heart started racing when he saw me there and he was just so excited to spend time with me and he was just so happy I am his girlfriend :)  Man!  He is one heck of a guy!  :)  I'm excited to get to know him more and become the bestest of friends! I just might be starting to fall for him already! :)  I love my life!  I never EVER thought I could be as happy as I am right now! :)  And this happiness keeps growing and growing and growing! :)  I love it! :)

Well, my friends, I will catch up withcha later! :D

Tauni Ackerman, aka twitter-patted-girlyfriend! :)

I could have danced all night :)

Well.. This week has pretty much been amazing! :)  I started off with surprising my mom for Mother's Day! :)  I showed up a day early! :)  Man!  She was SOOO excited to see me! :)  I freaking love my family! :)  My mom is like one of my best friends! :)  Cliche comment, I know.  But seriously.  We used to but heads really bad and I could NOT talk to her about anything without the conversation ending badly!  :/  Man though..  We have both grown SOO much and we are starting to talk to each other and love each other!  It truly amazes me!  Not gonna lie!  :)  Yesterday, I called and talked to her about my new drama, Lane Deines.  He is such a cutie, but I dunno, I have never really liked a guy even a little bit that showed his interest as much as Lane does.  It is pretty insane!  So, I called and talked to my mommy and told her kinda my feelings about everything.  I don't really expect it to end in marriage or in anything super intense, I guess though you can never really tell how things are going to turn out!  :)  I just want to enjoy myself, and in all honesty, I am just really excited, to even be experiencing it! :)  It is really great!  I am not gonna lie, I am scared OUTTA MY MIND!!!  But I think it will be fun and great to experience! :)  So, I am really excited for my trip that I am going on in August! AWWWWWW!! :)   It is gonna be so super great! :)  I still haven't figured out what my major :P  AWWWW!!  I need to really get on top of things!   I really want to be a teacher of some sort!  I have even had some thought of home-teaching my kids!  Huh!?  Random thought! :)  I dunno, I have just always thought that my kids they need a great education, spiritually and physically! :)  I just don't know if I am really qualified for that job but it just sounds, and feels right!  :)  But in all honesty I think that God isn't going to tell me no, I just wish he would help me know what to prepare for!  I mean, I do have my patriarchal blessing but it mostly just tells me to do what I enjoy and I have discernment to know what things are right! GAH!! REALLYYY!!???  So retarded! I mean.... I am really happy that I get to know what things are right but I can't decide for the life of me!  Because I just enjoy so freaking much!  I can't decide and I can't pick favorites!  I mean, I say I love spring, its in my top 4 seasons! :P  Haha!  I know I am a super big dork!  Haha! :)  But I am super stoaked for this semester and for after it to see what happens!  :)  Life is so exciting and you never know what is gonna be thrown your way! :)  I love it! :)  The element of surprise! :)  Yay! :)
Well my friends, I think I am going to read a book... YES!  A book!  Be jealous! :)
Sinceriously,
Tauni Ackerman :)  This crazy College Girl :)

Um... Yes... It's true, there IS a first for everything! :)

Here I sit, on my couch! :) It has been a REALLY great day! and I can't imagine anything of the sort making it less! :) I heard a really great quote today, "Life hits hard! Its not about how hard you can hit, but how hard you can get hit and get back up and keep moving forward." Winston Churchill :) My life is literally amazing right now and I am so happy for the people in my life! :) Everyone deserves happiness! NO MATTER WHAT! :) There is so many people who forget that! :) I love you all and you guys are amazing! :) Remember who you are and don't forget to smile :D 
Okay, well, let me start with 3 weeks ago....  I met this boy in the parking lot in a snazzy suit and I said, "well hello!  You look snazzy in yer suit!"  First conversation I had with the poor lad, I tell him my name! He said, "oh, so your pretty much a big deal?"  "Almost a compliment, I am a big deal..." Haha!  Brilliant Tauni!! :)  Is he ever going to talk to this weirdo again?!  Here, I am three weeks later!  We are DEFINITELY still talking!  :)  So, it all started off as we decided we were going to go do early morning baptisms.  Then, the next day!  We went on a walk!  Man.  Do I love walking! :)  We just wondered around until we found the nature park, talking about all sorts of awesomeness!  :)  We finally got to the park and we just sat and fed the ducks!  I am pretty sure we were there for at least an hour or so!  :)  It was SOOO much fun! :)  I got so very sunburned!  Awwww haha!  but did that stop me from going to the park and laying out in the sun? Nope!  Haha! Well, after that we established that we didn't think anything past friends would really work.  At least, because we just didn't feel anything past that! So, friends it sat!  We would keep planning to hang out but it would never really work out!  So, one day, I sat on my balcony and was just working on my homework, I was a wee bit chilly but it was WAY too distracting in my apartment. :P  So, I updated my Facebook status, as I do ;)  and guess who commented on it.. You guessed it!  :)  Yeah, so I had seen him a few hours before on campus and he had boiled eggs in his pocket!  SAY WHAAA!!??  Haha!  Silly boy!  He had made them right before he came so he carried them in his pocket and said they made quite the hand-warmers!  :)  Haha!  I gotta love my awesome friends!  But yes so he commented on my status and I ended up just going over to his apartment! :)  It was really fun!  and we were just talking and we couldn't really figure out why we couldn't "like" each other!  Bah!  We just got along so darn well!  So, as we sat there, he wanted to come and lay down on the couch I was on.  So, I said come on over!   So he laid on my leg and I was SOO tempted to play with his hair!  So, what did I do?!  Creepily touched it :P  Haha!  Then, turns out he likes it when people play with his hair!  PERFECT!  Cuz, I love to play with peoples hair!  So, haha!  Silly boy fell asleep!  Haha!  I thought it was pretty cute to be honest!  He was so embarrassed! But, ain't no thang! :)  I didn't mind really! :)  So then, we kinda just continued hanging out EVERY DAY!  Man it was super fun!  :)  I loved doing homework over at his apartment!  :)  Then the next day, we had Stake confo!  :)  It was fun, because before, I did my laundry and I went to the lounge to do my homework!  And guess who was there!?  YUP! :)  So, I just kinda chilled and whatevs...  Then, we walked to confo and then I ran into someone I knew, which oddly happens a lot lately! :)  But yeah so my spot next to him was taken :(  Sad!  But it's okay!  I sat in front of him and it was SO FANTASTIC! :)  I am so blessed to be at this school!  :)  I learn SOOOOOO much every day! :) So, we decided to go to the Regional conference together!  So, I sat next to him at that!  And MAN!  It was SO ABSOLUTELY amazing!  :)  We have such inspired men in this church!  It is amazing to me!  :)  But, during this confo, he leans forward! What could that POSSIBLY mean?!  I say, it means they want their back scratched!  So, I asked him if he wanted a back scratch!  :) :)  Freak yes he did! :)  And so I did!  :)  And then a couple days later, he was extremely busy!  I felt sympathy for the poor kid, and I offered to bring him some food! :)  And I did!  :)  I even put a little sticky note on his sandwich that said: 
From dawn til dusk you work so hard
with all your optimism you never neglect your guard.
Keep smiling and make good choices we always say.
I really hope you have a marvelous day!
Til the end, Endure, Endure!
Then we shall hang out for sure! :)

<3 your bestie Tauni :)

Man!  haha!  :)  He loved it!  So, right after I gave him his lunch he asked me if I wanted to go to devo with him!  And but of course I did!  :)  So, I did!  And he started falling asleep and I scratched his back again!  :)  Man!  It was so great! :)  And then yesterday!  I went on "phone-fast"  and It was SO great! :)  Turns out... So did he! :)  haha!  Weird!  :)  Me and him are so crazy alike, I can't even grasp the reality of it! :)  But yeah and we ironically ran into each other and he asked if I wanted to go on a lunch break! So, I did! and I went t over to his apartment and we made chicken, rice, pineapple, and sauce! :)  Man!  SOOO GOOODDEE!! :)  But yes, it was quite the experience to hear his roommates and the interesting things they talk about when girls aren't around! :)  Haha!  Quite hilarious!  I think he was even a little embarrassed by those silly boys!  :)  I think he's adorable to be honest!  :)  Haha!  I was eating and I tend to make noises as I eat... So, he made a noise too.. Then his roommate just asked, "Should I get a chaperon or should I leave. Also, why aren't you guys dating?"  Huh?  Then this sweet boy turns to me and asks, "Yeah why aren't we dating?"  WHAT!?  Haha! He said, "it's on your shoulders now!"  Haha!  :)  It was pretty funny!  Then he told me that his roommates were all asking the same question.. I wanted to expound... but I didn't!  So then we went to Walgreens and just kinda talked about it pikito... and we just walked in and he said something cheesy.  :)  Cheesy is my favorite :)  Haha!  He said, "Yay!  More laundry money, oh and I need to wash my car too!"  I said, "Oh, to impress the ladies?"  He said, "Is it working?"  Haha! :)  He is like my favoritest person ever! :D  Haha!  The guy behind the counter had this awkward face after which made it even better! :)  So, the question still lingered.... "Why aren't we dating?"  When we got back to his apartment he was sending a letter to the finances office and we were talking to Grant and Rachael.  And, we said something super similar and they asked, "why aren't you too dating?"  GAH!  and haha!  then he turns to me and says, "I don't know honestly."  then he added, "Hey Tauni, is this our address?"  Haha! :)  THAT THREW EVERYONE FOR A LOOP!! It was HILARIOUS! :)    We decided to go do homework in the lounge and we just sat on the big couch!  I wanted to bring it up,but then his friend showed up... So I figured, maybe I'm not supposed to talk to him! :P  So, after our homework time was pretty much over, we were gonna head home and sleep! but, I helped him take some stuff over to his apartment and I had this feeling that he wanted me to stay!  So, I decided that I would go sit on the couch as he was putting some of his stuff away!  He came out in his shorts and T-shirt and his blanket and he put it over me and him and he just kinda scooted down and I laid my head on his shoulder and my arms and hands were just kinda wrapped around his arm!  I kinda just stroked his arm a little and he stroked mine and we were just sitting there and cuddling!  :) :)  I never had cuddled before and I really quite enjoyed it! :)  And we would just talk to each other and it was cute and really quite entertaining :)  Then I fell asleep!  Garwsh!!  Haha!   He asked me if I was sleeping and I said, No.  He said are you lying to me, yes!  I was so nervous!  And Haha!  :)  So, then he walked me home! :)  We hugged and we both made this sound when we hugged each other! haha!  It was pretty funny :)  Then, I went inside and I had a text from him...  He said, thank you for being so amazing!  And I said I don't think I can compare to how amazing you are! :)  Man he is just SO great! I just hope these feelings are mutual!  I've had butterflies all day!  We talked about how we didn't have feelings before, but how I thought it could be good if we just tried it out! :)  And He just said he didn't want it to go super fast!  :)  Me never being in a relationship was TOTALLY okay with that!  I told him, I would let him set the pace! :)  And that we would go slow! :) Man... I can't even think of someone more awesome!  He speaks his mind and I'm not scared to talk to him about anything!  He is so great! :)  This morning he needed a hair cut and Kayla cut it for him!  He walks in and his hair is stickin up and he literally looks like he just walked out of bed :)  Haha!  I thought it was absolutely adorable :)  And yeah!  so then I made some pancakes and we ate breakfast and we just talked and he was being such a goober!  :)  But then he got up and took mine and his own plate! :)  Then he  decided it was time for him to leave and go get ready!  but he just sat there, rubbing my shoulders, scratching my back... :)  Then, he had to leave so I got up and we hugged and man... He is going to Utah this weekend and I think I just might be bored out of my mind!   :P  Haha!  :)  I'll definitely miss him lots!  but Ain't no thang!  :)  I just hope he doesn't change his mind when he's gone! :/  Haha!  :) He is great!  He teases me sometimes... but I am a  tease-able person and I think its funny cuz I totally tease him back!  :)  And he makes me feel absolutely amazing and he is so funny! :)  I am excited to see where this might lead! :)  Wish me luck my friends :)  

Love you guys! :D

Tauni Ackerman :)

DANG!! What a SEMESTER I be having!!! :)

Well!  As I have said a MILLION times before.... This semester has been SOOO Great!! :D I have been meeting so many new people as the semester progresses, and it just keeps adding to my numerous friends!  :)  I just have to say that I LOVE college!  :)  Especially up here at BYU-I (unless your in Canada then it would be down).  :P  haha!! :)  My classes are SUPER fantastic.... Except math... my appreciation for that class is still being tried!  :P  Haha!  This weekend is Mother's day!  And do I have a surprise for my Madra :)  Yes... YES I DO!! I am going to be going home for the day :)  YAY!  :)  and since it is a surprise I can't even fathom how EXCITED I am!! :)  I am not going to lie, I miss my family like crazy!  The longer I'm gone, the more I stinkin miss my cute family :)   Well, super update! :)  I have a new best friend to add to my list!  Lane Deines!  :)  Haha!  Pretty sure he is like the boy version of me!  :)  Haha!  We are so much alike and just have such a similar personality and sense of humor it is seriously, mind-blowing!! MIND-BLOWN!!  :D  haha!  Funny!  :)  Well... OH!!! I have gotten some AWESOME letter from the Elder Brooks Browning! :)  Haha!  In the last letter I got, he sent me some pictures and also a response on a card with a dog with a ribbon on his nose! :)  haha!  :) SOOO FUNNY!!! :D haha! :)  and he asked me if I would write the other set of missionaries since they are from Europe and don't get so much mail.... SO OF COURSE I did! :)  It was super great! :)
SO I think its my bedtime!
Later Peeps!  :)
The Musical, THEE only Tauni Ackerman... except for the one in Boise.. AWKWARD! :)