Yes. I am blogging again! :) Who reads it anyhow right??! Haha! Well, today started out pretty crappy. I stayed up really late and talked with Emily about a lot of things. I am kinda frustrated at some things right now and I am having a really hard time with making my mind up about things. How can I possibly make so many decisions in my life right now? How old am I? 19?!!! GEEEZZ!! Haha! But yes.. So I am debating on whether to go on this trip this summer... It is such a great opportunity! :) I get to get a church history tour as well as a American history tour! WOW!! And only for $3000. I miraculously got a $3000 scholarship that is extra money in my pocket... UMMM how does that happen??!! MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!! And, as I said before, I am wanting to change my major and I am not completely sure which direction to really go with it all... Music, History, am I throwing out Graphic Design too soon??!! Man, growing up kinda sucks! Am I aloud to say that? haha! Yeah.. All these decisions... On top of trying to keep up my social life, my physical appearance, my spirituality, my wonderful calling, and just trying to be a wholesome and realistic person. I am just glad I am not naive. I tend to think a lot about the future and if I do this now... Will it affect me later? And how will it affect me later? Yeah. That is one of my many blessings it actually talks about in my P. Blessing! :) That I always think ahead and that I am blessed with making faithful and discerning actions. I think sometimes..... this is gonna sound awful.... I don't like having discernment. Because, the Lord keeps giving me the chance to choose my own. Good between good. I mean, I have my agency, but I wish I had a persistent course. It is frustrating to make the plan than follow the one written for you! :) But I am glad for the "keys" and "signs" God gives me to make my own decisions with a bundle of good advice from the heavens :) My grandparents called me tonight and it was so great to talk to them! :) It is so great to know that they care! I miss my family terribly! I want to just go hang with the cousins and all that!! :) Today, I was thinking about prayer and the power of it.. Sometimes, I wonder if it really works. I talked to a couple of my great guy friends today about it! One being Jake Hansen. I talked to him a little about it and he told me, I really just need to take care of myself! :) Haha! That boy really makes me laugh! It makes me really want an older brother REALLY bad! :) I think I have lots of older brother figures... And I honestly love it! :) Also, I talked to Grant Stoker today and.... could he be any more perfect to talk to!? He just sat and let me talk everything out! It was amazing how much better I felt after we talked :) Honestly, if I look for the boys just like the boys I liked in High School plus the ones I have met in college.... I'll be set for life :) Haha! :) I love college!! SOOOO much!! My sisters came up yesterday! :) It was so great! Something that Grant told me today really made me happy. I was telling him, I asked for comfort the other day when I was feeling lonely and down and I didn't feel anything... and he said, "That's a good thing. Because there are those people that say they feel comfort every time. It's really good that you can tell the difference between when you can feel it and when you can't." Wow! That is something I haven't thought about before. I think it is so funny. I think for the future and I can't imagine doing anything else. People keep telling, don't worry about that. Think about now, and enjoy it! Can't you do both?? Well, if not..... I'll find a way! FREAK YES!! :) You will all see me accomplish great things, have a great family, a great marriage, a strong and faithful testimony, and I will make history whether it be big or even small!! :) Just you wait Enry Iggins! ;) Haha!! :) Smile always my friends!! :D Have a FABULOUS DAY!!!!! :)
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