A Heater Vent! Get me some A.C. FOOL!! :)

Alrighty Blogging peeps!
I don't really have time to blog right now but I need to do some journaling and what better than blog?!  Okay, so this week has been going by so slow already!  Oh my word!  It is ridiculous!  :P  I really am starting to get stressed out beyond capacity!  I really wish I had someone to talk to!  I mean I have fabulous friends and a very supportive family.... But being up here, at BYU-I, I have been feeling this feeling of being alone that I can't quite describe.  I have been trying to more positive and be the optimistic person about never having a boyfriend, never been kissed, never being able to relate.  I think all this stress is just building up and I don't see how everyone else is still mackin' with their boyfriends not even giving thought to their classes that end in a week.  I have fallen so behind though.  I feel like I allowed this self pity party reign my time and consume me fully!  I hate it to be honest!  I really don't like feeling like this and I need to buck up and be the person I know I am. Which is strong and patient!  :)  I can do it!  :)  I need to start going by a schedule.. No late nights, no all-nighters, I need to start waking up early, reading my scriptures, reflecting on my life, setting goals. Okay, I have heard by writing something down it is making goals so this is how my schedule should be next semester...
Daily Schedule
-Wake up by 6 am
-Read scriptures, say Morning Prayers
-Be ready by 8 am
-Classes start 9 am at school until 3 pm (Homework, studying)
-(Job) 4-8?
-Homework/Studying
-Work out 9:30
-10:30 get back from working out
-Scripture study/Night prayers
-In bed by 11.
THURSDAYS
-Wake up by 5 am
-Temple trip
-7 am Scriptures
Alright.  So, now that I put that out there, I feel like I should now feel the responsibility to make it happen! :)  And I will!!  I am hoping to meet my goal weight of 160 and also have straight A's next semester!  :)  I am going to haffta go on a budget hard core next semester and it will be hard but it's gonna have to happen!  I am really starting to get lonely I guess because I am missing my missionary guys SO BADLY!  :(  I know that I wasn't "involved" with them or anything and I have been trying to push them out of my brain!!! But they were just such a big part of my life as my best friends and just being those guys that were constantly there for me :)  I am trying SO VERY HARD to smile and say, well they are doing the Lord's work and that is what they should be doing! Which is COMPLETELY true!  I just don't know how they are doing it honestly.... I miss them so badly and they probably don't even know how much I miss them and how I honestly wish they would just come back!!  HOW IN THE WORLD can someone handle 2 years away from someone!?  Why couldn't I be one of those people that didn't have friends so I wouldn't have to miss people! ?  Haha!  No... That's a lie!  They changed my life so much!  :)  i just want them to come back sometimes to tell me a funny joke, to give me a great big hug, to tell me I look good, to just make my day!  But I know they are doing the things they are supposed to be doing!  :) And they worked SO hard to get there!  :)  So, I smile on for them as my heart aches and weeps for their company!  Sorry.... I don't mean to be a downer!  It also might be since I haven't gotten a letter in 2 1/2 weeks and I am DYING!! I can't even imagine when they go to Russia and Argentina!!  It will take about this long to even get letters!  Gah!!  Stupid mail system!  Too bad I just love writing letters so very much! :)  I just hope I get one soon or I will go NUTS!! :P
I love my boys, and I am SOOO Excited for next semester!  I hope to meet tons of new people and to start on the road to becoming what I want to be! :)  I have already jumpstarted it and it has been great so far!  :)  So my life is looking to the beam of hope and I am going to be who I need to be to be ready for my special someone!  :)  I know, I am 19 and I don't need to be thinking of those things... But I do.  I ALWAYS need to be preparing whether it be for marriage, mission, or school, or even just life that will throw me its challenges... I NEED TO BE READY! :)  Well, I think I got out what I needed!  :)
Love you guys!  Keep it real!
Love <3
Tauni Ackerman
The Sleepless College Girl :P

What a Wonderful.... LIFE! :) (Music Reference) Heehee!

Oh my goodness! :) This last week has been a bit crazy! :) One of my roommates got ENGAGED! :)  I am SOOOOO EXCITED FOR HER!! :)  Oh my! But I got one missionary letter this week! :(  Kinda disappointed! but its kosher! :) like the pickle! :)  Haha!  But yeah!  I am waiting to get a letter from my boys! :)  COME ANY DAY WHY DON'TCHA! :) AWWWW I just watched Aaron and Emily kiss! :)  It was stinkin cute!  I hope someone will show me off and love me like that one day! :)  Man!  So yesterday, me, Linds, and Kayla went shopping and got lots of summery like clothing! :) and sandals!! yay! :)  I even got some super legit sunglasses! I think that I LOVED <3 the weather this week!  :)  I just love the rain!  I like walking around barefoot and dancing in the rain, splashing in the puddles, and standing in the cliche Gene Kelly stance of just loving life and loving to "sing and dance" in the rain! :)    I like to joke around lots.  I am a bit goofy when you get to know me better!  I just love making people smile and laugh! :)  I am so happy right now!  And SORA GALORA! :P  Last night I went to I-Cover with Kayla and we had a blast!! :)  We stood on the floor and rocked out and sang along the entire time! :)  Haha!  I reached back in this tight crowd to grab Kayla's hand and I grabbed backward and accidentally grabbed some random guys hand... UM AWKWARD! it was such a great night!!! :)  Then we danced until late! :)  It was so great! :D  I love my life!!!
Stay cool my friends! :)
Tauni Ackerman :D

Sunny with a chance of MORE SUN! BEST WEEKEND EVER!!

Tauni's new haircut STRAIGHTED:)

Tauni's new haircut CURLEDHow is it that Idaho is staying so BEAUTIFUL for so long?! :)  I am not complaining though :)  I love it so much!! :)  It even gave me the urge to cut my hair :P yup!  I cut it!! :)  It is actually pretty cute! :D  so on Friday was when this amazing weather started! :)  And what did I do?  I went to Sammy's with Kenz,


Haley, Lindz, and Sean. :)  It was pretty fun!!  :) We listened to Allred, a super popular guy on ITunes.  He was freaking amazing!! :)  Me, Kenz, and Haley got hungry so we decided we wanted to leave. But this guy, named Josh, came running after us and said, you guys are leaving already?!  I said, "yeah we are sorta hungry."  He said, "Oh, come back and I'll have my buddies buy you a shake."  So we stayed and just chatted for a couple hours:)  It was really fun!! :)  and I got a delicious blackberry cheesecake pie shake!  mmmmmmmm soooooo goood!! :D  Haha then we left and we decided to go get pretzels so we ran across the street and the guys yelled we saw you!  haha!  It was so super funny! :) It was a pretty insane night let me tell ya!! :)  Yeah then when I woke up the next morning... I was dying for a letter but I was almost positive I probably wouldn't get one so I just decided to distract myself all day! so I got ready to go to the gym.  We ended up playing Tennis.  Me, Kenz, Haley, and Chase (Haley's Boyfriend).  And oh my goodness was it so much fun!! :)  Then Lindsey texted me and told me a had a pretty hefty letter from none other than Elder Tanner Browning. So I hurried home and I was so excited I ripped the envelope pretty good but hey, I got two pictures, a tic-tac-toe game, and a fabulous letter! :) The Browning boys write KILLER letters :)  I love 'em so much!!  Haha... Man, I miss my Tanner boy!!  Like tons.  Oddly enough I tend to miss him more and more every time I get a letter from that boy! :)  It's okay!! :)  So after I read the letter, I went outside to soak in the sun a little bit!  Then guess who pulls up?! Jonathan Muir and Jacob Hansen!  :)  I went inside fast to take a shower and when I came out we talked for a bit! :)  Then Kayla had to go take a test so we decided we wanted to go to the park! :)  Since we take years getting places, Kayla passed us on the way to the park and she stopped and came with us!  :)  We played just tossing around the frisbee, and then Jake, Jon, and Becca showed up and we were asked if we wanted to play Ultimate Frisbee and it was super fun!  It was muddy and the ground was frozen!  It was ridiculous! We couldn't feel our toes afterwards!  Haha! :)  It was super fun! 

Left to Right: Jacob Hansen, Kayla Hansen, Becca, Lindsey House, Haley O'Brian,
Tauni Ackerman, Jonathan Muir

So yeah!  But that was only the first part of an awesome night!!! :)  YEaAAAHH!!  That's right!  There's more! :) Jon decided to take us home to get cleaned up because we were all bare foot and a few of us fell in the mud :P  so we rode in the back of Jon's truck!

It was super duper fun!!! :)  FREAK YES!!! :D  I loved it!! Everyone looked at us weird and man it just felt like summery awesomeness :)

 Then we went to go get some pizza with everyone and we even got some some extra people to come along with us! :)  I freaking loved it!! :)  We got Joey, Grant, and Rachael to come along with us!  SUPER FUN!! :D when we got there... yeah we took literally EVERYONE... man it was a blast! :) After pizza we just kinda loafed around at our house for a while when Jon called and wondered if me and Kayla wanted to go to visit his grandma.  Kayla was cutting the girl from downstairs' hair so I just went with him! :)  It was super fun and man I miss that boy! Haha!  It was such a fun night!  Then we went back to our apartment everyone wanted to go to Cocoa Bean, and man the whole joke of the night was that I had some of Jon's gum he gave me, and that "went to visit his grandma" was code for making out!  Thanks guys! :P  We learned how to chop wood and also watched "Like Crazy".  :)  I love my life!! :)  Sunday was great when Jake and Grant came over for dinner and me and Kayla made brownies and Taco salad!  :)  Then we had games with a ton of people!  I scared Kenzie a million times with the blinds and it was SO GREAT!! :)  Well, I am super happy that this weekend went so well and it was BEAUTIFUL! Today was a pretty good day!  :)  I got a letter from Elder Hans Haroldsen :)  It was such a great letter!  :)  I am glad I have so many great friends that can make my week :)  And FHE was great! :)  May my week just keep progressing :)  SWWWEEEEEETTT!!! :)  Peace out my friends :)
College Girl :D

An Unthundering Thursday! aka No Thunder :)

Oh man!  These last few days have been crazy!!!  And super fun!! :D  I went and worked out with Lindsey Nelson yesterday!! :)  OH MY GOODNESS!!  I am loving working out!  I am hoping to meet one of my goals by May.  Either weight of pant size :)  It is going to be awesome! :D  Yeah... So yesterday we had clean checks and the dishes weren't done.  And either was the kitchen!  Oh my word, I was SOOOO peeved! >:/  I can't even explain!  But hey its okay! We all did our dishes except for one roommie of ours.... hmmmmm it gets me kinda fumed just blogging about it!  I am trying so very hard to love her and try to understand her, its just her ego and haughtiness that gets to me!! :P  It's okay!  All I can do is love her and pray for her! :)  But yeah.  Also yesterday, I went grocery shopping with Kayla and some guys helped carry our groceries/drove us home.  :)  How very nice of them!  I love Rexburg! :)  Oh my gosh and I also decided I am going to go back east this August.  I will be going to Washington D.C., Boston, New York, Plymouth Rock, Nauvoo..... Man I am SOOOOOOOO Stoaked!! :)  I'm not gonna lie!  Miracles happen!!  I wasn't sure if I would be able to afford going on the trip for maybe another year or so because there was no way I could EVER afford a $3000 trip.  And with the whole scholarship thing happening and... everything just coming together.... it just AMAZES me!! :)  I love my life!  :)  And oh my gosh!  Today I found out my Nana and Papa are going to Scotland/Ireland Mission!  :)  WOW!  I am so excited for them!! :)  They are such amazing people!  I am so blessed to have them in my life!! :)  I am going to miss them though!  Especially my Papa!  We have bonded and became such great friends! :)  We have even become pen pals :)  Haha!! :) Right now actually, I am sitting in the Piano Room at La Jolla listening to Grant's band jam.... OH MY WORD THEY ARE FREAKING TALENTED!!! :)  It amazes me to listen to people with such talent! :)  And may I say, without it being weird, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE GRANT'S VOICE!! :)  My favoritest genre/style of music is the stuff he sings!  :)  I am a big fan! :D I spent 3 1/2 hours playing the piano, and singing today! :)  I absolutely love that there is a piano room here or I would DIE!!! It releases my extra emotions so much!  :)  I love it :)  Well, hmmmmmm, what else to talk about!?  I hope I get a letter soon cuz I am needing a letter!! :) But I can have patience!!  :D
Haha!  Well Let me just go out with a Bang!  * BANG *
;)  Stay cool my friends
College Girl

Wow.. 2 in one day? Serious?! Why so Serious?! (Movie Reference) :D

Yes.  I am blogging again!  :)  Who reads it anyhow right??!  Haha!  Well, today started out pretty crappy.  I stayed up really late and talked with Emily about a lot of things.  I am kinda frustrated at some things right now and I am having a really hard time with making my mind up about things.  How can I possibly make so many decisions in my life right now? How old am I?  19?!!! GEEEZZ!!  Haha!  But yes.. So I am debating on whether to go on this trip this summer... It is such a great opportunity!  :)  I get to get a church history tour as well as a American history tour!  WOW!!  And only for $3000.  I miraculously got a $3000 scholarship that is extra money in my pocket... UMMM how does that happen??!!  MIRACLES DO HAPPEN!!  And, as I said before, I am wanting to change my major and I am not completely sure which direction to really go with it all... Music, History, am I throwing out Graphic Design too soon??!!  Man, growing up kinda sucks!  Am I aloud to say that?  haha!  Yeah.. All these decisions... On top of trying to keep up my social life, my physical appearance, my spirituality, my wonderful calling, and just trying to be a wholesome and realistic person.  I am just glad I am not naive.  I tend to think a lot about the future and if I do this now... Will it affect me later?  And how will it affect me later?  Yeah. That is one of my many blessings it actually talks about in my P. Blessing!  :)  That I always think ahead and that I am blessed with making faithful and discerning actions.  I think sometimes..... this is gonna sound awful.... I don't like having discernment.  Because, the Lord keeps giving me the chance to choose my own.  Good between good.  I mean, I have my agency, but I wish I had a persistent course.  It is frustrating to make the plan than follow the one written for you!  :)  But I am glad for the "keys" and "signs"  God gives me to make my own decisions with a bundle of good advice from the heavens :)  My grandparents called me tonight and it was so great to talk to them! :)  It is so great to know that they care!  I miss my family terribly!  I want to just go hang with the cousins and all that!!  :)  Today, I was thinking about prayer and the power of it..  Sometimes, I wonder if it really works.  I talked to a couple of my great guy friends today about it!  One being Jake Hansen.  I talked to him a little about it and he told me, I really just need to take care of myself! :)  Haha!  That boy really makes me laugh!  It makes me really want an older brother REALLY bad! :)  I think I have lots of older brother figures... And I honestly love it! :)  Also, I talked to Grant Stoker today and.... could he be any more perfect to talk to!?  He just sat and let me talk everything out!  It was amazing how much better I felt after we talked :)  Honestly, if I look for the boys just like the boys I liked in High School plus the ones I have met in college.... I'll be set for life :)  Haha!  :)  I love college!! SOOOO much!!  My sisters came up yesterday! :)  It was so great!  Something that Grant told me today really made me happy.  I was telling him, I asked for comfort the other day when I was feeling lonely and down and I didn't feel anything... and he said, "That's a good thing.  Because there are those people that say they feel comfort every time. It's really good that you can tell the difference between when you can feel it and when you can't."  Wow!  That is something I haven't thought about before.  I think it is so funny.  I think for the future and I can't imagine doing anything else.  People keep telling, don't worry about that.  Think about now, and enjoy it!  Can't you do both??  Well, if not..... I'll find a way!  FREAK YES!! :)  You will all see me accomplish great things, have a great family, a great marriage, a strong and faithful testimony, and I will make history whether it be big or even small!! :)  Just you wait Enry Iggins! ;)  Haha!!  :)  Smile always my friends!! :D  Have a FABULOUS DAY!!!!! :)
Love
<3 College Girl  

One is the Loneliest Number (Music Reference)

Huh... Well... How was this week You ask....??  Ha!! I laugh in its face dear sir!  :P  Haha!! Actually, this week was pretty rough.  I don't understand how people can just pick up the pieces and run with it!  I mean... WHAT IF it is a 1000 piece puzzle?!  Can you even imagine the talent it would take to keep that together while running??!!  Haha!  No. But really.  I have had a tough time with feeling a bit melancholy and kind of lonely.  Perhaps I am just wanting a boyfriend since I am at BYU-I DOOOOO!  Haha!  It is so weird to go from high school where relationships are such a joke, to college where everyone is lookin to get hitched to their one and only!  FREAKING WEIRD!!!!  Haha!  But yes.. I have been feeling quite the loneliness creepin into my little ticker in my chest, and to be honest.... it's a rough one mates!  Crickey!  But Ain't it a beaut!?:)  I am sooooo excited to be hearing how me boys be doing out in the mission field! :)  I read Tanner Brownings blog today and WOOWWZZAAA!!  Did reading that just make me giggle, cry, and smile all over the place?  Yes.. Why yes it did?!  How did you know, person of my imagination reading my blog!?  Haha!! :)  But, I can imagine the success they, meaning Hans and Tanner, are going to have out there!  I mean, I am sure they have already influenced TONS of people from Shelley, which goes on to their family, around the U.S.... So WHY NOT A NATION?? OR THE WORLD??!!  I believe hard core that they are going to perform miracles! :)  I BELIEVE BRETHREN!! :)  Thanks Em for being my friend tonight... I really needed the laughs and the tears... or lack of... :P  But I appreciate the influences in my life!  I am so very blessed!  And I forget to remember that sometimes!  I hope that this next up coming week will be SOOOO much better! :)  As Tanner and the Robinson family say, "KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!"  (Movie and Missionary Reference.)  Man, Peace out ya'll!  Love ya tons!  :)  Keep your chins up and remind me to do the same :)
Love,
The College Girl that is gonna reach for her dreams!
Nighty, night :D